Monday, March 25, 2013

学不会

我是聋子 听不到
我是瞎子 看不到
我是哑巴 讲不到
什么也不知道

时间可不可以停留在最美好的那一段时刻
真的是他妈的心情不好
不要问我okay不okay
不okay!
不喜欢自己低落到这种阶段
真的很不想说话

明明就不想笑
但我就是笑到很像很开心
“笑不代表开心,哭不代表伤心”
已经不会分辨哪一个是真心开心地笑和因为笑而笑

现在才发现
原来一点都不潇洒
连尝试过自己这关 都办不到
不是不要学
是学不会
她说 “你以前可以的”
我说 “你都说以前了,这会儿是不一样的东西,不可以混为一谈”


几时才学会
我记得我已经学会了
但又再一次学不会
人真的是他妈的犯贱

其实都一样
一样的行为
当初说的 和现在实践出来的
都不一样
我知道大家都不是潇洒的人
因为真的不容易

一切就保持原状
不需要去改变什么
时间证明一切
无需觉得遗憾


我承认我是失败者
彻彻底底 输给自己
俗语说 谁先认真 谁就输

熟悉的陌生人



Sunday, March 17, 2013

Holidays atmostphere

Must plan well for my holidays this time
I dont want to waste my holidays like last time
boring to the max for the last holidays
do nothing for the whole three weeks

End my attachment again 
It's awesome!
It's different with the previous time
Know well more than last time
Know alot of good staffs
It's really the first time that I meet good staff :)
Appreciate it
Thanks man! 
I will miss them for sure

Korean food with family today
Just realize that I always spend time with friends more than family
Love the feeling spending time with family
Grow up ady..mind set changed also
Really hope that can spend every single time with them
Elder sister always say that we are different with other kids
That's why we are independent 
because my aunt's kids exactly like a mummy boy and mummy girl
forever mummy kids 
indeed, they are too happiness
Their daddy will buy whatever they want
I just always bought what I want to myself
that's the difference between me and them
I never ever ask my family to buy branded for me
Anyway, I know that's a limit always :)

Just waiting for my gateway 
Haven't do my research o.0
worried man
Hope I will not lost in the city
I really need a break and relax!
This world full of busy and stress life
See so many people go Melbourne 
Make me feel like going Australia!
Just pray hard lah har!
My target - Europe and Korea
This is one of my wishlist :)

You are an idiot! indeed
Just go to hell 
You thought who you are
have my own personality 
I just dont give it a damn always!
fuk that shit 
Just dont get it that I rather talk to a wall ?
Dont ask me the reason why
it has no reason always
You are such an idiot
I just ain't care!

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Just deleted everything in my brain
reformat
Just anyhow destroyed the memory card in my brain
how many memory cards I need to reinsert?
exactly deleted 
So sorry that I can't recall anything
Dont anyhow ask me to recall for anyone
fck that shit if u ask me to recall

Everyone has their own stories
Life is going on
Trying to search what life I want
Just fulfill it
Dont make myself regret

My personality is who I am!
My attitude depends on who you are
you are too irritating!

Flirty
Just go away 
This flirtation just dont suitable me
so sorry..
Im not the one you want
I love the lifestyle I want
You are not my lifestyle
Im not the previous Cyy that you see
Just let u know
it's a wrong timing and person
That's it

Monday, March 11, 2013

Mid of March

I never ever so sensitive about my age
but now I did
Why the time cannot flow slower a little bit?
I really hope that I'm in teen age forever
Feel so old sia
Even the heart is still young but the age is not really young
When we talked about age together
Sentence of the day will be-
"We are twenty this year! Actually we are not really young anymore"
What the hell
Why we have this kind of mindset
Terrible

See! My attachment gonna end soon
My trip is coming soon
The days are getting closer and closer
I haven't prepared anything yet
oh shit..
Must plan well for my schedule this time
If not we sure will lost in the city

Maybe this is the reason why make me hate them
Proactive? This is not
This is so called kiss-ass!
Dont try to follow here and there just want to get a good grade
I never ever do this before!
Such a stupid idiot thing
Anyway every time I sure will meet this kind of people start from the beginning
damn holy shit for those people
Yea! I always dont care about these
I dont care.. it's none of your ass business
Dont say Im not proactive and do nothing
When I do the basic thing, what are you doing and showing?
Please dont try to show off how smart you are
For me.. you are a follower!
I just always heck care! so what you are going to do?
yah.I always dont give it a damn
Just because I dont care 
I know what to do 
Lucky this time Im not same as u
once a time in my life is enough!

Every time sure have people ask me
"why u dont become a doctor? why u want to become a small missy?"
Doctor more people will respect more income more higher rank
since my very first attachment
Every patient sure will ask me this question
The favor answer for them is-
"If we dont become a nurse, who is going to take care of you?"
and some favor question from them
"Nurse is a low grade job.. why u still want to become a nurse?"
-If everyone think this way..every patient has no people to take care
I can't change people mind
but I just let them know nurses are not a low job as what they think
We study 3 years diploma are not just cleaning people ass
what for we study so long ?
Yah, from different perspective
We are maid 
We are cleaner
We are housekeeper
We are doctor assistant
We are low job worker
but without all this nominal
how the patients shower themselves?
how the patients eat medicine themselves?
I always dont care what people think about nurses
but sometime I really screw it up
have no OT
always let people scold
have no fix time to eat our lunch or dinner
have no fix time for our working time
All of the colleague forever cannot meet together 
If you don't like us, just go away 
dont anyhow judge nurses
One of the people tell me that nurses are respectable and frontline job
Its really make me feel great sometime
Should be proud to become a nurse =)

Either "like", "suitable" or "can/cannot" is totally different meaning of these words
I like you but not suitable - cannot together
I like you but I cannot like you - cannot together
It's suitable for us but I dont like you - cannot together
It's suitable for us but something make us cannot together - cannot together
like each other , suitable too but something make us cannot together - cannot together
so many consequences make each other cannot together 
such a stupid thinggy 
喜不喜欢 合不合适 能不能在一起 是三件不同的事
you must know this 3 different meaning :)
Long duration doesn't mean love each other well
but it confirm can see the real heart of the people 

I dont understand why everyone like to say that I have many many many friends
Yeah.. I have alot
but doesn't mean that I contact with them everyday every moment
Please dont always say that I got alot of friends 
My life cycle is getting smaller smaller and smaller
I might migrate to Hong Kong one day to have my own life
Just marry with a Hong Kong guy < 3
speak Cantonese! hahahaha 
everyday dream this kind of thing just make my life more crazy
If Hong Kong not a country that I want
I might choose Korea too! but I lazy to learn their language
or maybe find an angmoh but they are too opned I dont like
Well.. now im happily talking to myself 
If people dont know , might think that Im a mad person 

I got a freaking crazy roommate always make me mad
I dont know why
I slept until half way
Suddenly the stupid phone rang loudly to destroy my pretty dream
then say coming to my house and fetch me out
Besides that
She always hurts my lil heart lol
hahahahaha anyway she is cute sometime xD
She is also the one will crazy with me 
Eh! now we know if we do something that make people dislike
the person can be very cruel 
Always remind ourselves that dont make people become so cruel
okay? kiddie!

In my life 
I just feel great to meet 3 people
One is her
One is my freaking crazy roommate
One is him
This him is not my boyfriend 
dont anyhow misunderstand

I'm single but not available

Well 
When people attached , they want to be single
When people single, they want to be attached
This world is always crazy
I just heck care 
because people stories always none of my business... 

Words of the day - grow up
Now I know.. sometime we dont need to know every single why
when the thing happened sure have the own reason
dont need to keep asking why and want to know it
that's what I learned :)
and remember these
Whatever happened over this past year, be thankful for where it brought you
That's why I always thanks people 
because without all of the people beside me 
Friends also make my life more beautiful


Sunday, March 3, 2013

柔佛古庙游神 2013

大日子 一个好开始 :)
一年一度的游神又在此结束了
游神过了就代表新年也结束了
时间过得可真是快到自己都在怕
现在尽然三月了
所有的事情真的是不知不觉

神明
元天上帝
洪仙大帝
华光大帝
赵大元帅
感天大帝
要bobi所有的人
顺顺利利
身体健康
生意兴隆
学业进步
万事如意
帅帅美美
兴兴啊~ 发啊~

小小就去游神
还记得以前爸爸让我骑在他身上
我还记得这场景 哈哈哈
不错温馨的其实
不过 那都是童年的回忆
同样的昨天我也是看着这场景
有爸爸抱着女儿 有爸爸背着女儿
走到累的时候 多么希望有人也能这样背我
不过我知道我在发梦 哈哈哈
小的时候最喜欢拿到糖果
只要把手一伸 一定会有人给
同样的昨天 也不断的把手伸出去 拿糖果
拿到自己都不好意思了
看着不同年龄的小朋友
几个月的宝宝
两三岁
小学
都觉得小朋友们都很可爱也很幸福
小朋友都是和家人一起游街
不像我们这些年轻人 多数都是朋友陪伴
只能说很怀念小时候游神的时候

看着老人家 跟着神明 从开始到结束的游着
只能用赞字 来形容他们
他们的精神真的是用百倍来形容啊
我还看到有些老人家拿着 拐杖一步一步地游着
那时真的是停顿了一下
简直让我钦佩得五体投地
他们的精神真的值得让年轻人学习
说到年轻人
可以说大部分的人都是年轻人
大家都带着不同的身份参与这个游神
有凑热闹的
有站在一旁看的
有摇神的
有急救的
有许多的表演者
有艺人
有DJ
有大头娃娃
有踩高跷的
有舞龙舞狮打鼓
有武术的
有扯玲的
有新闻播报者
有志工
有拿香的
有拍照的
有一家大大小小 老老少少
有pattoh的
有一大群朋友
只能说大家都带着不同身份去到那

在这次的游神遇到了
十年前的小学同学
要喝茶但一直喝茶不到的朋友
几年不见的中学朋友
表妹的朋友
我妈的朋友
才遇到3344的人
7788的人都没遇到
自己的好朋友 熟人
都没遇到
还真是第一次
我家的熊猫姐姐 没遇到
我家的couzzie chew 也没遇到
年年看到的yk ng 也没遇到
我的枕边人 也没遇到
最奇怪的是 Stjohn 的人我真的是看到他们的次数少到 可怜
要看到的人 却看不到
真的是无奈 很努力在看左看右 但就是看不到熟人
没有看到的人 就一直 被他们打肩膀
“喂” 不然就被叫全名 真是的
哈哈哈哈
不然看到了人 就像傻百在那边跳
“eh 你你你” 拜拜
就继续走
电话有钱 都打不出
要打电话给我想看到的人 又打不到
真的是严重无奈
有史以来第一次没有遇到我家的姐姐

看到全部人都拿着snake board扇风
自己却没有拿到
不停的在找Astro MyFm
真的真的真的很喜欢他们的歌
大日子 天天好天 惜福
哈哈哈哈 皇天不负有心人
终于给我找到他们了
还拿了两把扇子
真是感谢我的大哥
一直说 “扇子扇子 我要扇子”
就拿到了
还跟林德荣握了握手
真是有爽到
虽然他不是什么大大大大大明星
但就是有爽到 可惜没拍到照
在行宫没有看到他们已经很伤心了T.T
说到行宫
还真是突然想到
今年没有七早八早到
所以没有看到出神
真是严重sad
还有我们应该是7早8早就能离开行宫
害我看不到我的朋友 也害我们拍不到照
都是你的错
你真是罗嗦 delay our time T.T
不用紧 明年早一点

这次考虑了蛮久
才决定穿上游神衣去游神
其实自己也很想穿上制服去duty
但又想走走
不同的衣服 就有不同的感觉
喜欢救人的感觉
也穿着制服走了很多年
今年穿上游神衣服
真的是有享受到那气氛
虽然年年都很有气氛
但感觉真的是不一样
明年会穿什么衣
明年再打算 哈哈哈哈

这个游神 真的是情侣聚集地
连我家的小妹妹也委任着这个身份参与这次的游神
只是没让我碰见
说真的 我还真的没带着这身份参与过 =='
每次都是stjohn 和 朋友
真的是不懂这种感觉
还有现在的情侣 真的是越来越像兄妹脸了
每个都长得差不多一样样
应该说是夫妻脸
看到他们笑的时候一模一样
还以为他们是兄妹 哪知道 看着他们手拉手
不要告诉我 十多岁的年轻人 手牵手 是两兄妹
我才不信 /.\

这也是 可以碰到 十年不见的朋友
多年不见的朋友
谁谁谁 都可以遇到
想要找多年不见的朋友
这里真的可以找到
哈哈哈哈

有人问我
为什么 你们就是这么喜欢这些游神 (没冒犯)?
假如告诉他这是文化 他也未必会明白
我就告诉他
就像
基督教徒喜欢祷告
伊斯兰教喜欢膜拜
大家都有喜欢着自己的东西
假如对着游神一点兴趣都没有 根本就不能了解我们对它的热诚
我只能很骄傲的说
这是新山人的大日子
我自己很骄傲的说
我是新山人
请不要看不起我们这些新山人! (:
不喜欢游神 就别来
别说游神的不是

游神2014 明年见!! < 3