11 days

going to single number soon
what feeling should I have now
Happy?
Sad?
Excited?
Depress?

H A P P Y
Finally, home soon

S A D
Just adapt well here
gonna leave here
gonna leave the awesome weather
gonna leave those new friends and staff

E X C I T E D
My Europe trip gonna start soon
Cant wait to travel around again
and meet my awesome friends, kids and family soon

D E P R E S S
Money finishing soon
seriously I spent damm bloody alot
No one can save me this time
Just see how first

Trying to control my temper sometime
Maybe only few people can control me
Others are quite hard actually
When my kid tantrum comes
I will show to everyone
Just realize when I don't smile
It's super damn ugly
So I better smile more

Since when
my temper is easy to get hot
No one dare to talk to me when the fire is around my side
Seriously I really need to control it man

Last day tomorrow
Please give me full strength to handle
No dropping tears please
They give me a name as "useless" in hakka dialect
Exactly correct man

Hmmm
No more Guten Tag
No more Guten Appetit
No more Danke Schon
No more Morgen
No more Alles Gute
No more Bitte
No more Nein Nein Nein
No more Fruhstuck
No more Kaffee
No more Brot
No more ach-so
No more tschus
No more tschao
No more Entshuldigung
See!
When I adapted well
Means it's time to say goodbye

Hate to write blog sometime
the mood will come together
Just bear with it
okay?
CYY remember
got chance to come back here
so dont sad :)
Should be happy
Okay! It's just an emotion
many people are waiting for me go back siah!
C H E E R S

My little cutie is waiting for me
My yeva is waiting for me too
All of my gangs also!
My family also
SEEYAH!

感谢

幸运有着一大班朋友
真的感恩有他们
虽然大家来之不同领域
但我还是幸运的

回头一望
朋友有很多很多很多
但好朋友就是那几群
不论从小到大
永远没有一个同年同班的好朋友
这辈子应该是跟同样领域的人没有缘

感谢遇到枕边人
应该是上辈子造下来的福
感谢族群三条线
随时随地都能约
感谢像似我姐姐但又没有血缘关系的他
教导我看着我陪伴我安慰我照顾我
似朋友似亲人
感谢动物家族
虽然不像以前 常常见面
但见面还是有说不完的话
感谢从三角恋的族群变成四角恋
虽然三个都小过我
但关系从没有变
从中学到现在 都一样
感谢我最喜爱的同姓堂姐
其实还蛮了解我的她
来临前 叫我好好的玩 别想家 千万别掉眼泪
感谢那5姐妹
最少联络的他们 但当我们在一起时
还是有心连心的感觉
还有也要感谢那了解我 讲话像吵架的漂亮姐妹
当了一年的枕边人 不简单 有谁会想到 我们如此的好
感谢最疼我的老哥
真的是老啊
总是拿我没办法的他
真的感恩

感谢家人 把我养的那么大
虽然不是来自什么富有家庭
但我要的 他们会给到我
我要的 我会得到
用好的吃好穿好的
回头望一望 中学的自己
不喜欢回家
只喜欢往外跑得我
真的是一天一地
中一到poly life
没有一个拜六是在家的
在家的拜六 可能是发烧
现在拜六 可以留在家就留在家
陪一陪Yeva好过出门有时
真的长大了

感谢让我跌倒的人
是他们让我的心一次又一次的
变得跟坚强

最后还是要感谢改变 :)

我要回家

我要回家

我要回家

我要回家

想家比想人还伤心

以前想家 过一条桥 就可以到家

现在还要飞一大片天空

如果德国是新加坡就好

一下就回到家

听到我家小霸王的声音

脆弱的眼泪像珍珠似的流下来

又是宁愿不要聊天

聊天就想回家

不是普通的想家

每天念念念

一直念着要回家

每个人都开心看到我出国

当然也会羡慕

是我 我也是会羡慕别人

但我还是会想家

家永远都是最好的避风港

家的床永远是最好睡

家的包忱是最舒服的

我要回家

小公主就快要诞生

可惜的是我这个姨姨 不可以第一时刻去探望

我答应你

下了飞机隔天马上去看你

人在德国

心在马国

想马来西亚时

就会想到大选

还是自己的国家最好

倒数着

其实很快 就可以回家了

但还是想回家.....

30 days left

Seriously i am countdown-ing
I know I will miss here when I go back to my hometown
but I miss home now T.T
I want to have my limteh session with my buddies and sisters
How can people study in oversea dont miss at home ?
Cold blooded enough
and I respect them

3rd day in Paris
I feel like going home
Kind of baby girl
Never ever leave my home more than 4 or 5 days
now almost 40 plus days

Everyone just asked me dont miss home and enjoy as much as I can here
Of course I will enjoy myself but I still miss home
When my sister told me that Yeva is finding me
Tears rolling again
It's so warm and cute when I heard that
"Where is my Xiao Yi Yi?"
I miss her cutie and naughty face!
Long time didn't fight with her
hahaha

This country is seriously paradise
Melt my hear all the way
Just want to come back here within five years for my Europe trip
Please let me fulfill it
Just come here eat play and shop like nobody business
hahaha!

had been playing around with my hello kitty wallet for 2 hours plus
Just so worried
When I can dont be so sotong and blur ?
Just cannot tahan myself sometime
oh my god
my Ic, license, money, bank card just inside the pouch
Luckily found it! :)
Thanks my friend !

talked to my bestie sampat roommate via skype
Seriously I miss everyone of them
time flies
I believe that 30 days like a twinkle
flies like nobody business
hahahaa

Let's countdown :)
Do miss me!

grateful

I can stay in this country for my oversea attachment

Should I say thank you to someone?

Never ever think that I will come over this stage

This is not I want actually

I mean in the beginning

Anyway I like it 

Just may blame myself sometime why I don't study well since young

you are  the one who make me feel that i want to against all the things about you

especially kind of people like you

better run away as far as I can

Just keep it up!

Last but not least

sincerely, thanks 

even I know you wont read this and 

me and you just come from different world

living in different world 

mindset also different

Missing home 

Missing mommy 

Missing Yeva 

Missing friends 

and Missing my bed and my everything

October

从去年12月倒数着这趟旅程
期待 兴奋 盼望
都达到了
现在却倒数着回家的日子
人真是矛盾

看起来强大的我
其实一点都不
一直被大家保护着的我
在试着去独立
无论是家人或朋友
大家都没让我受伤过
还记得
中学的我
天不怕地不怕
可能那也只是外表
在某些方面我还不是那么刚强的

一接电话
喝多点水
冷不冷
穿多点衣
记得用lotion和lipstick
不要一直吃面包
要吃多点
不要太省
不够钱要讲
知道大家都在担心着
有时真的还希望大家
不要问候我
不要担心我
这只会让我更加想家
还没开始踏入旅程时
就已经不想开始了
大家都为我开心
但我只想回家

从不进厨房的我
被逼着要下厨
有妈妈洗衣的感觉
真的很棒
现在却大老远的去用laundry machine
还要等
还要收
还要弄干
还要折
如果永远不用长大多么的好
有妈妈的呵护
有家人的保护
我不是温室里的小花
但我是受保护的花

行李箱
七七八八
都是大家准备
有大家满满的祝福
只会让我跟想家
带着没被调过时间的手表
起来第一件事情 马来西亚现在几点了
手表从不离开身旁
想家就看一看手表 看一看照片
就会暖一暖

到了别人的国家
不需要再埋怨了
马来西亚还是最棒的
这里除了天气凉快以外
我还是喜欢我自己的国家
好好的享受这里天气
但我还是希望不要越来越冷
真的怕会冷到变冰

想念妈妈的饭
想念凉茶
益和云吞面
宽中果条仔
menu please baked rice
面粉高
虾面
炒果条
nasi lemak
还有我最爱的辣椒
这个国家没有辣椒
每天ketchup ketchup ketchup
从讨厌吃tomato的我
变到不讨厌了
免疫tomato

还想要移民去国外
我看我是在发梦
现在就依依不舍了
移民?
我应该是在说梦话
可能在malaysia乱乱移
还有可能

期待回家的那天
嘻嘻
Anyway
暂时的我 还好 =)