End of January

Omggg!
It's end of January!
1/12 of 2013
What make the time past so fast?
Why the movement of earth never stop before?
Can the time slower a little bit?
Just a little bit...

Recently
Spending money like opening the water tap
My money keep flowing out
and never ever going in =(
Seriosly dafuq
If can , just kill me before i buy any stuffs
Everyday I tell them
"kit lai liao.. kit lai liao.."
When the shopping kit is activated, it totally cannot shut down
Really no one can stop T.T
I am not regretted that I buy so much
My heart just very painful when I reached home
Happy when I see these stuffs
Excited when I paid money
Crying when I see my purse has no money
I think my shopping neurotransmitter in my brain is slightly high
Can anyone control my brain?

Exam is around the corner
I think this is the very first time that I haven't started my revision
Who ask the government set the exam date during Chinese New Year
We are having our exam on the 6th day of Chinese New Year!
Seriously dafuq.... Cannot stand this education system
Chinese New Year is much more important than exam

Irritating /.\
Super irritating
Non stop irritating
I will kill you one day I think
or you just disappear yourself
If not, I really will kill you
Damn freaking insane
Tak boleh tahan

From there
I understood a lot
I really grew up ady
Different mindset and different thinking
I should say thank you
The most important thing is
I was happy before

Ohhhyahh!
Just attended Jeremy's wedding last week
Time flies eh
All of us always play together when we were very young
Teen age at 14 15 16
Anyway , we are still young! :)
Met a lot of friends
so called big gathering
I still remember our gang name is "Double Killers"
6 boys & 6 girls
Sounds funny.. but this is a good memories anyway
Always play together
Always eat together
Always tuition together
Always hang out together
Always go other classes together
Always take photo together!

5 girls 6 boys
It's quite sad that the other one didn't come

Sincerely , we wish Jeremy
"Happy Wedding :) "

Chapter 1

What is the definition of "brave"?
How you define this word?
I still really cannot get this answer
I always tell people that I scared this and that
Most of the people will reply
"Can you tell me what you don't scare?"
From this sentence
I know that I'm useless...

I know right
Need to step into this place
How much brave I need to bring it in
Definitely not 100%
Just try to adapt as what they say
"take it easy"
"take your time"
"dont think so much"
"its okay, they are human too"
"dont worry"
"you can do it & you must do it"
"everything will be fine"
Indeed, actually im not really counselled successful by them

Trying is the only way that I can do
It's not easy
but what to do?
I can't anyhow give up since im on this track
Stepping into there just hope the time will flash quickly
End of that, I tell myself
"yah, im alive!"
This is how silly I did

Sleeping time less than 3 hours
and I can still stand until now
How much Panadol I need to consume in this attachment
Say "no" to this week
The temperature signal is on again...
This is what I deserve actually
Dont get enough sleep and end up increasing temperature again


I know some of them worry also
sincerely, regards..
Luckily not everyone throw me into tong sampah
and
treat me like a kid who no one cares
I know right
There are still have many people care me..
Receiving her called during lunch time
She is the one who always will care me
Just make me feel that I'm not inside the dustbin and no one cares
Always being a kid in front of her
Crying, laughing & throw anger
Sincerely thanks that im having such a good sis in my life

Need some nature air to breath into my brain and lungs

Fresh air could provide clear mind

Seriously, I need a rest...

It's a rest, not holidays

Stressful life in this city will drive me mad one day

Trying to update this blog frequently

Fearful

Living almost 20 years

Just scared this kind of things

how useless am i

Almost get into depression..

Counselled by many people

&

it doesn't work

can tell me what's going on?

I know right

This is part of my life that i need to go through

and this is my job also

Actually I really know

I just cannot overcome it

Who is going to save me..

No one, right?

Even she talked to me a lot

I still feel like not going and just want to escape it

I keep telling myself

I can't be so irresponsible

This is my job

I must do it

Have to wake up at 430am plus

how I'm going to sleep today?

Before that, i never ever think so much

and I'm trying to avoid it

Pray hard.........

Life is like a railway

Keep going on...

Goodbye 2012! Welcome 2013

Have no time to review here before 2013

freaking busy life recently

My 2012 ain't perfect but it was awesome

Can't really recall what I had been for the previous year

but I believed that I was happy every moment and even every seconds in the past 

Had been busy almost half of the year for my sister wedding in 2012

When the busy moment around there, the time passed like a rocket

Like to question myself everytime

1) What I want actually?
2) Why I must study so much?

I really have no idea what I want actually

Just follow the pathway that people had plan for me

People ask me to study nursing course

I just follow the instruction

Stepping into the healthcare life 

It's not really easy

Welcome a new birth, elderly face any disease & leave one of the family member in this world

this is a life cycle 

No one can escape it

Always telling myself "Cherish your life, you may not know what will happen in the next seconds"

What for I must study so much

is it because of money? 

No working , No money?

Just want a better life?

Someone, please tell me

Year 2 is going to end soon

Year 3 is coming down here

Almost end my study life

Dont feel like stepping into that society life

Too complicated

i always tell myself

dont worry about your future, it hasn't come yet

just live your present and make it the best

People asked me 

"What you did in 2012?"

"nothing..."

Last time, she told me 

you don't plan for yourself

No one will plan for you

so, I have planned what I want to do for this year

expensive planning

2013

Ended my teen age

no more fifteen, seventeen and eighteen

Going to 20

Cannot get used it

After 17, the age increased like flashing

Ended my secondary school life

like no direction everyday 

This is what people said "Without direction living in this world"

Meaningless....

I really hope that I can go back to my secondary school

Flashing these picture sometime

Can see how much I miss my previous life

Secondary school life is the best in my life

I can't find any interesting matter right now

生存下来就只是因为想生存

What's the point? No point actually

I also hope that I really know what I want

Have no dream also

*shaking head

When you are affected easily by some one, this is how much you care

Be silent better than talking non stop

Being silence doesn't always means yes

Sometimes it means "im tired of explaining"

sigh, if can just anyhow disappear in this world

Just nice....

Time to sleep

hecking day

fever, flu, leg pain, back pain, eyes pain 

All come together and say hello to me

One more day attachment for this week

Be smoothed please

This is what I want for 2013:

1) Happy

2) Healthy 

3) Happy again......